puasa???!!!

this year is somehow quite interesting..first year of fasting with babah in that condition..tahun ni first year anak-anak puasa..klaka juga tengok 2 orang tu...
abang dapat bertahan sampai satu hari even da petang tu nangis-nangis lapar..we were being a little bit cruel on him,,rasanya..sebab paksa dia bertahan...hahaha..whaetever it is anak..this is life..
adik memang tak dapat diselamatkan lagi la..si gemok ni memang degil skit..asik membebel je...'adik ni haus sangat ni..',,'haus..haus',..'adik minum skit je'..hmm sudahnya kul 4.30..allahummalakasumtu...hehehe
but sayang,mummy is so proud of you...bebel pun bebellah..achik tak de peduli...
achik da janji ngan uncle nak cari buluh tahun ni..tapi!! bukan meriam la. seumo idup achik tak pernah tengok rupa meriam buluh tu,,hahahaha
achik paksa uncle buat pelita dari buluh tu..da 2 tahun uncle janji achik..so tahun ni..since kita berdua memang ade kat umah abng...nak tak nak..buat juga..tau!!!
haih..aq pening kpala nak pikir pasal pekerja mase raya nanti..macam mana ni..juz tak nak buat silap..k ah kejap lagi baru pikir..hehe

lost

aq rasa sasau skit hri ni..semua sebab mang la ni...mimpi dia tu, buat dengan aq skali takbole nak fokus dengan kerja aq..mang sila bertanggungjawab..youre the person in charge now.realize it..kan da banyak kerja aq tak le nak buat..sebab tak le fokus! fokus tu penting mang!

tapi betul what mang..bile kite keep on violently being tortured or silently hurt, you know..the person tak tahu that we are hurt..kita akan mula jadi overprotective pada diri kita..memang betul apa yang ko buat tu mang..it will comes to the stage of where we have no interest in hearing or sharing our thought, problems or opinion with others..believe me mang..aq pun hampir da sampai ke situ..to the people that i love, it hard for m to say..'hey watch out..you are hurting me..' or ''i'm hurt'' or'i dont like it when you make me that way''..i always just terima everything and keep to the deepest side of my heart..so that it wont make me feels too frustrated of being treated that way..

bile hati da tak le tahan..tears are the best metod in symbolizing it..aq hnor prasaan aq dgn nagis..macam budak2 kan..haha
tapi itu hakikat..
entahla..maybe it will comes the day of when a savior will com n take me away..secara jujur..aq masih bersyukur dgn apa yang aq ada..mang, black n white is not something that u can classify it as safe..it is juast that youre torturing yorself by denying other excitement that life can brings you..

memang betul, bila kita protect diri kita macam tu, kita rasa kita strong enough to face anyting yang datang..ape org cakap..berduri, ranjau, onak liku???cuma satu.bile kite berhadapan dengannya, especially the trouble that caused us to live this way,, kita sedar,kita masih manusia yang tetap akan berasa lemah kerna masa silamnya..past is a weakness to human..i say yes

how far can i go

emmm.... da amat lama rupanya aq tak buat benda benda alah ni..hehehe..things have become more rusty and complicated..by august, i realized that i got to keep everything on track..a shall go in the first place, then b and c. not c first,d later and a the last one..
latest ni aq ade g meeting..hmm, aq skali lagi jadi macam org terencat yang di hantar ke kalangan cendekiawan...warggghhh aq tak tahu ape yang patut aq buat..aq tak tahu nak buat ape in the middle of para businessmen and businesswomen tu...i said that before that i hat such occasion but yet i was still be sent off..
dari start sampai akhir, aq memang nak jadi separuh gila..aq decided amik seat yang paling depan dan row yang kosong..yeah, alone is better when you know no one that might have the same thoughts as yours..tapi!!!!!
mana aq tau kekawan ayah aq yang degil dan kuat melawan tu nak duduk kat belakang aq..warghhh what a mistake!!!!
first target when i arrived there...'dont be sumbody that attract people attention..no silly mistakes or funny words shall be said today'...but those guys....warghhh semua impian aq jadi mimpi semalam...
aq tau by being a young lady stepping inside the hll itself da buat ramai yang pandang2..tapi aq bukan dealer..umama kata CL, tak bole kira sebab part time..huhu
apakan daya, encik2 tu bukan nak paham...huhu
aq rasa mulut aq da nak krem da..orang kat dpan citer pasal minyak itam enjin diesel yang baru..dia kat belakang sibuk berteka-teki optimus prime pakai minyak itam apa..bos kat depan sibuk cakap pasal mail hq antar suruh naikkan sale lagi..dia bole slamba jawab..'jgn riso bos..semua tempat dapat mail tu...'''adoi la..nangis kalau aq yang jadi rsm..haha
taklimat baru start dia da tak sesabar nak rehat..
however
aq rasa relax lepas g taklimat tu..sebab banyak gelak..macam klaka lak..aq tak sangka yang aq akan berada di tempat cenggitu skag..
tapi tu la aku masih menyimpan impian untuk terbang di awan biru
hahaha

A song to remember

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight
I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

temper

aq perasan yg skang aq da macam kembali kepada perangai dulu..aq susah nak control temper aq..dekat anak pun kadang2 aq tak le nak control..hah, aq tak suka..amat tak suka..lepas aq kuar skola, aq da berjaya control temper aq..kira macam nak tgk aq naik angin tu, tak de la mudah sangat..this habit reminds me of someone..there was somebody that used to face my anger..as i kept objecting every single thing yg dia berminat nak buat..

during this time, being at this kind of stage of life, easily snap wont makes me any good.. i know that very well..running a bussiness, emosion shouldnt go first..rasional is what i need the most..because of this temper, i lost somebody that i care..because of this temper, i was put into misery several times..but yet, i just cant leave it..

ummi is leaving for umrah very soon..anak is not in a very good shape.. he is having a very bad depession..extra sensitive..sometimes, i admit, even people said that i am a very patient auntie, i couldnt control my temper..aq akan mengamuk juga..ta pi tu lah, after a while, aq akan rasa sangat,amat menyangat bersalah..so anak achik, abang n anak 'mummy', adik..behave k..achik loves you both

bip..bip..tempoh bertenang

haaaa....da selesai kenduri mak de..da selesai gak kenduri my beloved aunt..skarang, kena kerja keras untk habiskan kerja2 tertunggak aq..huhu..memang macam nak gila..aq da save dlm pendrive draft lejer aq..but...i found that i lost my pendrive on the next day..warghh..it was sooo frustrating to realize that you have to start from the beginning..

yuyu is coming home..huhu..aq tak le classify..ni bad news ke good news..bagus sebab aq ada membe if aq kena ke mana2..bad news, sbb aq baru je nak masuk tempoh bertenang aq..da dia balik nak buat kacau,,

hari ni mak de cakap nak lansungkan nikah bulan 12 ni..huuu, gi mana ni..macam sedih lak nak lepas sorang kuar dari famili ni..lebih sedih, of course babah..if dia tak dapat nikahkan anak perempuannya itu..last wedding dia sebdiri nikahkan..memang ini kitaran hidup..

mase enggagement mak de, my sis nye 'kawan' datang..hahaha..aq siap da cakap da..hantaran langkah bendul rupa apa aq nak..hahaha..terkulat2 je dia dengar..well, aq memang jujur dan ikhlas bab ni..aq ni memang materialistik hahaha..

aq pelik la..aq dengar kat radio, org yg byk tido, badan dia naik..org kurang tido, bole kurus..tapi knape aq tak kurus2???KENAPA???!!!!asal aku naik timbang je, angka tu bertukar bukan main cepat..warghh aq mahu kan bentuk badan yg dulu..aq kena kurangkan 8kg untuk tu..tapi takat ni, nak kurangkan 100gram pun, macam jauuuhhh la sangat nak capai..

lately, ramai org yg salah sangka aq cina..aq memang pelik..habis2an..aq ni memang muke punye habis melayu..salesman tu bole bantai cakap cina..nak jawab, apa dia cakap pun aq tak tau..kesian lak dia cakap sensorang..semalam aq gado ngan mamak kedai runcit..aq memang geram tahap cipan..depan kedai ko tu, parking la..tanah kerajaan..bile pulak ko bayar permanent parking nak letak barang jualan kat situ..aq bayar parking tau tak..da la aq da 2 kali u-turn cari parking..bila dapat kena halau..da la tak tau nak cakap elok2..skit tak de budi bahasa..heeei geram betul..yang paling sakit hati, dia bole panggil aq amoi..eii tak tau beza ke..warna kulit aq je da tau aq ni melayu..

sunyi lak rasa..hmm ni yg aq tak gemar ni..it makes me sick..sick of missing those old good times that i love the most..

exhausted

kursus da berakhir..bila imbas balik..cis, sungguh tak guna..aq tertipu..kursus tu bukan wajib pun..huhu..ada la 8 kerat yg datang..arghh sakitnya hati!!!!!anyway, bagus gak gi..aq lebih motivated nak usahakan stesyen..ada hint sikit macam mana nak rolling duit..iaitu, jgn bekukan aset..
aq rasa kelakar sungguh..aq tak habis blaja n aq penah menafikan sekerasnya penglibatan aq dlm bidang ni, tapi ap dah jadi? 70% operasi stesyen skang aq da buat sendiri..tapi memang sakit..terkejar2..aq respect babah nye tekun..22 tahun dalam bidang ni..gila tau..petronas start ada stesyen dalam awal tahun 80an..babah kira antara the oldest dealer yg petronas ada..ye la..dia dapat perlantikan pun, wakil petronas datang cari kat rumah..huhu..
aq memang bz skang..rasa macam da tak cukup masa yg ada..dlm aku menaip ni, depan aq ada berlambak fail yg aq kena check n organize semula..mi god..mase g kursus, smua org da tanya bila nak buat dt..malangnya aku br 22..lagi 2 tahun br layak..tak pe..usaha dulu..dalam aku tengah tunggang terbalik ni..income tax lak dtg..hari2 kuar pasal tak nak beban rakyat, tapi hakikatnya, kerajaan macam nak peniaga kecil ni gulung tikar..penalti berganda2..dealer2 yg dtg kursus smua pertikai hal ni..hukumnya di sisi islam..ntahla..aq bukan org yg layak cakap pasal ni..tapi dealer2 tu memang sengal..smua da umo 30 ke atas..ade ke patut disekolahkannye aq yg terang2 single dan tak laku ni pasal mariage..knapa suami cri lain la..ohhhh ttiiidakkkkkkkkk!!!
anyway dia org smua tu best gak..even memang da tahap uncle kat aq..lebih2 lagi aq ni memang pandai bergaul2 dgn org berusia ni seperti 'dia'..hehe
kereta aq dapat isnin ni..hehehe..best, best..aq memang nak guna kereta tu selama yg boleh..aq takut nak buat hutang lagi..takut tak terbayar..ye la, aq ada komitmen lain lagi..so, if aq nak beli keta lagi, aku nak beli cash..tak de la pening in future..kereta ni pun babah nak bayar separuh..hutang 5 tahun, tapi babah suh habiskan dalam 2 thun stengah..thanx babah
esok nak kacau dodol..tradisi is sumting yg best tau if kita hayati..macam mak di nak nikah next wik, dis wik buat dodol, kumpul sanak saudara..rapatkan hubungan..aq suka..aq suka family relation yg kuat..sbb happening bila raya..adoi, raya..bila urus stesen, macam susah je nak buat huhu..tapi tak pe, aq kena gak bahagikan tanggungjawab sosial, diri, keluarga n friends..talking bout friends..mis them so much..i dont even have time to get enough rest, apatah lagi kawan2..but girls, bukan maksud that i dont care n love k
better get some sleep b4 babah bangun..hope tonight dia tak susah tido n asik jaga..kesian dia..seksa tunggu siang..aq muda lagi..bangun malam, tak cukup rehat aq kuat lagi..tapi bah, plz..tido..usaha untk tido..why must our liver gives us lots of difficulties?huhu

kursus ma kursus

walaweh..aq dapat fax dari pdb..kena attend kursus inventori mesra..hmm, bagus kursus ni..slama ni aq hanya godak je sistem back office stesyen..sbb, aku tak tau nak tanya siapa..so, ikut sedap aku la aku tekan..babah cakap, kena faham betul2..wohoho, habisla aku..aq tak bole terlelap meskipun sesaat..huhu..skarang tempat training pdb da tukar..dulu buat kat ceruk subang tu..skang kat shah alam..aku envy sgt dealer yg dapat stesyen tu..heaven do..tak yah susah kemas stesyen ke, bersihkan ke..asal ade training, smua di tanggung beres..mana la pak cik2 dealer tak ngamuk..depa di suruhnya buat kerja2 staf..hahaha..no wonder babah takkan pergi smua kursus2 tu

apa yg sedihnya, harinye sama dgn hari spm kuar..aq da berangan da nak naik skola..tak de rezeki lagi..huhu..sian arip..ottuke? kerja is much more important aite? being nur, attending on behalf ID Nur, wow..what a very symbolic occasion..aq kena serius..aq tak nak terkena lagi dgn income tax..tuhan, bantula kami..peniaga2 kecil ini..huhu

ape yg best dgn training pdb ialah??MAKAN..aq bukak schedule dia..byk gila stop makan..adoi, i'm on diet..its hard to maintain my weight rite now..bertahanla hidayati..hehe..

mestila lagi best kalau keta aq kuar b4 kursus..i wanted blue color..babah disagreed..dia nak granite grey..hehe..cant believe that aq amik manual transmission..so yuyu, if ko rase nak try, baik improve skill ko..hehe..my new car, a gift from my eternal love..babah..thanks babah..adik takkan kedekut nak bagi sesape in family pakai..hehe..ucu n mak de must learn how to make a manual car move smoothly b4 adik bagi bawak keta adik eh..yes hepi..even blm..but i like it..because i love robotic designs..

today n tomorrow

today is quite busy..went to seremban to fetch younger sis..dropped by at jusco seremban to buy some supplement product for babah..warghh, sounds like despatch job aite? but i'm kinda of enjoying it..hehe
tomorrow, i have appoiment with lhdn officer..habisla aq..sumpah aq tak tau hujung pangkal cerita macam mana nak calculate tax babah..it's a very complicated work, that i can say for sure..to that officer, tomorrow is gonna be one of the worst day u'll ever have..aq yg mingai math ni..nak lak gi tgk macam mana dia kira cukai..i shall take some actifast with me..

hye..n this lhdn..should't them give more atention on those tax agent? should't a tax agent must n compulsary to know and completely understand this tax maters? n how come my father is being audited for once again? n to make it worst, it was about the taxes in 6 years back..i am 22, n i really don't know either i am prepared or not to face n solve this problem..yargh..if i see that azwan, aku sula dia..bodoh..kot tak tau nak buat,jgn la establish company..duit amik kerja tak siap..mingai..ni la dia lelaki..huhu

babah said, he wants to buy me a new car..not specially buy for me, as everyone in family can use it, but the thought is what i appreciate..really love u babah..huhu..you're sick n yet u still have ways to make me happy..also today i got news..i'll be sent of for some seminar..about Mesra i think..waau, aq tak tau nak buat apa..juz praying very hard that the seminar won't fall on mak di's wedding..

apa-apa pun..esok jumaat..maksudnya, mak de, ucu, n achik tua are going home..yeah..hmm kena tambah dalam diary gak yg aq kena col Seet untk beli coklat hantaran mak de..next week is gonna be her big day..lalalala

waiting for tomorrow

today is quite busy..i went to seremban this evening to fetch my sis..dropped by at jusco to buy a medicine for babah..n tomorrow, is gonna be a long day..i need to meet some officer in LHDN..about my father's tax..i really can't understand, tax agents shall know everything about this tax matter before they are qualified to set up a firm right? then how come that my father is being audited once again?



i think, malaysian shall do something about this..sometimes, when mind is taken down by emosion, i felt like the government is cheating..for sure they knew that bussinessman will find a tax agent for their taxation matter but yet thay are stil failed to monitor those firm..they should, from the very beginning, prepare a column for the agent to put their signature too..then anything happen in the future, they wont just simply slip away like that stupid tax agent of mine..huhu..tunggu aq jumpa ko..memang la..geram sesangat

yet, they took payment from us.. it was not that we asked them to do job for free..stupid agent..just see how far can you go with your firm..

arghh, talking about this wont make me any good.. i need to have some rest

nothing much

i don't know, but it seems that today is going to be one of the worst day for us..hehe..those two young men are totally taken down by some sickness..i can't figure it out..but it seems that abg is really not doing good..he just threw up and it amazed me..

for sure i am not happy for them..but one of the good thing about this day, finally i can do my houseworks without being interupt..well, this is for sure because of sick people will lay down on bed rather than moving here and there..

so, here i am, sitting in the office all by myself, waiting for the clock to ticks the time away..one hour to go before 11..be patient..

being all alone like this makes you think a lot of things..i'm thinking of cuda, gina, ateq n yuyu..warghh, why is yuyu's name included in here??haha..yu, mungkin aku akan naik mozac mase spm diumumkan..jgn jeles..tapi aku pening, apa la yang aku nak bawak untk 2 abg kite tu..

okeyla, i think i shall finish up my pantun..i'm gonna be my aunt's made of honour..huhu..the outfit that i'm gonna wear is on it way..can't wait..huhu..aunt, sorry if i take all the attentions from you..haha..that baju is some kind of sexy one..haha..kill me if it does..i wont dare to put on something like that on your happy day..promise!!

klaka pulak..mak di..she's getting married to may former headmaster..warghh, how small this world can be..n how comes that i'm gonna call that person uncle rather than 'cikgu'??i hope that i can behave on that day..i hope la..i cant promise..the last time that i tried to hold back my setan laugh was only able to last for less than half an hour..auntie nazi said that no one akan nak kat aku dgn bunyi-bunyian yg aku hasilkan..hehe..i dont know in the future, but for the time being, i dont care..hahahahaha

anak ayam menguis padi,
anak itik berlari-lari;
kalau pengantin gemuruh tak sudi;
silalah wakil tampilkan diri....

go cikgu mokhtar..tak sabar nye aq
hahaha

i hate this part

hari ni hari check up babah..everyting seems to be okay, well it may not be as okay as normal person will be, but i;ll take that as a good sign..it's getting late n babah still cant sleep..doc did not want to prescribe some sleeping pills for him..killing my last effort to make him rest..

babah disagreed the idea of tightening the band..i can't force him, didn't i?..anything u say bah..i'll accept it..seeing a doctor is good, people, but when it comes to be that the doctor can't comes out with a second opinion and keep on disagree your suggestion, it will definitely annoy you..i've been thinking on trying alternative treatment..i read about al jabbar product and some other stuff dat claimed they can fix the problem..but the doctor told me to not do it..arggghh, i shouldn't ask from the first place..it makes me doubt the treatment..but if they are just thinking of making big money, our kkm shouldn't pass the medicine rite?

ohohoho i dont know..why dont Malaysia being more specific on this? if the treatment isnt true, dont allow them to commercial their product..people in need will for sure go for it..make it to be compulsary for the doctor to have jnowledge in those kind of treatment..then, number of death cause by disease can be reduce..

i am too tired for this..babah didnt allow me to take my nap today..huuuuuuuu

what shall i do..marriage??

this day is not my day..it has been a while (ye ke) since the last day i cried..arghh, i hate those tears..knapa manusia dicipta dgn air mata??ha itu la soklan paling bangang n bernas yg boleh kuar dari mulut sorang manusia yg pernah spend 6 years belaja sains..baik, aq akan hukum diri skang..

hehe, tak pela..no matter how sad you are, how worst your day, n how unfortunate you had been, duania tetap berputar..aq akan sambung sedih aq nanti..kang, g la cari citer tangkap lentok, yg sedih2, bole nangis..kang org nampak tak de la malu sgt..hehe

lagi 2 minggu, my sis is going to give a 'certificate' of her relationship with a man that she chosed..haha, seeing my last elder sister meninggalkan kehidupan bujang, is quite sedih..paling penting, o my god..pastu turn aq..ooh tak..kakak dulu..hehe,klaka la bila pikir yg skang sampai giliran aq untuk masuk fasa dewasa ni..tak, aq takkan mungkin boleh nampak matang..muke ye la..huhu..

act, aq tak berapa nak yakin dengan perkahwinan ni..aq rasa lelaki ni, complicated..tak mungkin dia org bole stick pada rutin yg sama untuk tempoh panjang..ini aq rasa lebih kepada lelaki zaman skang la..resmi lelaki..berjanji apa saja..tapi bila da dapat punyakan..hmm..wives are taken for granted..aq berdoa moga my sis tak menjadi mangsa..smoga dia gembira..tapi kalau tak ada sedih dan derita, bukan hidu[ la tu kan namanya??haha..anyway, aq tak nak cuba..

induk cakap, kita tak boleh pilih macam tu..pilih org yg hari2 buat kita hepi..mesti dalam seminggu ada sehari dua yg tak hepi..baru normal..tapi aku tak nak macam tu..aq tak nak terperangkap dalam hidup macam tu..if kita tak boleh jamin yg kita tak akan derita or untung di mase depan, aq tak nak amik peluang tu..aq bukan jenis tabah..aq boleh duduk mengenang sesuatu yg sakitkan hati aq dengan sangat lama..try me..it took one year n a half for my last depression..huhu

so maybe that's why,..kakak ada boyfriend n aq tak de..haha..klaka kan..kembar tapi beza sgt pemikiran..aq dah nak kena pikir..cincin apa yg aq nak buat hantaran langkah bendul adik aq nanti..haha..to her boyfriend..bawak2 la bersabar kalau tak nak broke cepat sangat..aq tak peduli..org nak cakap apa, cakap..haha ye ye je aq..

mengantuk..stop sini je la

backdrop

wallaweh..da lima tahun rupanya aq berenti sekola..pejam celik,pejam celik..mujur la tak pejam lansung..huhu..banyak kali aq fikirkan, aq tak bole bla dgn keadaan kehidupan mase sekola dulu..ponteng..haha wajib do..tapi benda yg paling aq hargai..kehidupan sebagai 'backdropist'..haha satu istilah yg yuyu bagi..

cikgu leman n cikgu jai plus arwah cikgu nordin, memang manjakan kita org..mase group dgn arwah cikgu nordin..nak buat backdrop, memang sumting yg aq eager sgt nak buat..lepak time..bertin-tin biskut n kordial..pastu g stor cikgu man, amik coolman..pagi2 cik zainal or cikgu nordin beli ais n bfast..huhu..mis those memories a lots..act, mase ngan c.nordin, kerja kita org senang je..byk jadi tukang tgk..sbb c.nordin amat cekap dlm kerjanya..jarang la kita org nak stay siapkan backdrop waktu malam..sbb cikgu nordin is a very family man..ye la muda2 dulu warden..byk abiskan masa kat skola

dgn cikgu jai, wahaha heaven..kunci bilik seni memang la kita org ade spare..dkat si yuyu..memang silap ah bgi kat dia..memang dia guna sebaik mungkin..rindu tak yu..aq tak de la nak join ko n che berumah tangga kat situ sbb aq lebih prefer katil kat dorm even bahaya di serang cikgu mail tu tinggi..hehe..yuyu, plg la pembuli cikgu man..nk diikut logik akal..ckgu man pun satu..ikut sgt ckp dia..sanggup g belikan supper semata yuyu ugut tanak masuk asrama..pada hal kot nak di pikir, lantak ko la..ko yg tak tdo..haha..tapi tu la sebab syg cikgu

kalau dgn cikgu man, byk aktiviti luar skola..aq sndiri tak paham, apa la yg aq bangga n hepi sgt bla dapat ikut team sukan kuar..kalau dapat naik bas tu, huiih..rasa macam da menang sgt da..cikgu man yg simple..ingt mase dia memula pkai hanfon..auntie bising2 pasal dia tak gak angkat tepon n slalu gak m.i.a..cikgu man, yg slalu terlepas cakap.."awk tlg sya kali ni, awk ckp je nak apa, saya bg..",,never use dat phrase again, cikgu..bahaya

c. man n jai pun klaka..slalu terlepas cakap pasal rancangan menyerbu aspura malam2..tapi cgu kita org tak penah bocorkn rahsia..tahun ni c.man sambung blaja..mcm mn la gayanya tu..wahh..aq memang tak le bla dgn memori2 ni..aq benar2 hidup la masa tu..

sape la yg kata hidup lpsa skola ni best?..hai, boring..bg aq la..byk nak kena pk..asignment, projek etc..kena hati2 pilih kawan..salah pilih meroyan..ahh, penat sgt..

tpi hakikatnya

aq da besar da..bukan belasan taun lgi..cikgu nordin n cik zainal pun da tak de..pemandu fernando hasnor pun..hei cik hasnor tu baik tau orgnya..slalu ingt kat kita org bla bawak budak gi tmpat lain..dgn berkompromi dgn chenor la, hidup aq lebih bermakna..haha..cgu nordin..aq ada skit kesalan..aq tahu ajal maut di tgn tuhan..tapi aq kesal gak yg aq boleh terlepas pandang..cikgu nordin tak minum pun ubat dia..act,c.gu man ad bg thu pasal c.nordin give up bila tahu dia ad kanser thp 4..dia tak makan, minum apatah lagi amik ubat..haha..aq ingt nak pujuk dia..dgn matang la..blm apa2 laie..aq da nangis..huhu buat malu sungguh..den, ckgu minta wife dia bg ubat..pastu buat lawak..dlm dok kita org gelak, tak prasan dia da letak tepi ubat..da balik g jumpa cigu man baru yuyu ke cakap..mingai..ckp la awal2..haaa, sehari sblm dia pergi..aq ad dtg..bln puasa..tinggal rangka..aq sungguh da tak le cam tu dia kalau bkn anak dia ckp tu dia..

thanks cikgu..smoga roh ckgu dicucuri rahmat..al-fatihah

cuti khas universiti

sumpah aku ingat nak mintak cuti ni senang..macam staf ayah aq..isi borang cuti je,dah..mana aq tau nak minta cuti kat universiti ni sikit punye la susah..wuwu yuyu..maapla ye..aq memang da buat ko hampir cicir lutut hari tu..hehe..padahal ko da cakap da kena jumpa dekan..tapi si begar n keras kepala ni tanak dengar..haha..by the way, btul gak aq nye cakap..aq tak payah jumpa dekan cuma kelulusan je perlu dari dekan..hehe..aq rasa memohon sesuatu mengikut saluran yang betul memang la menyusahkan dan memenatkan..bila aq jujur n serius, aq disusahkan dgn prosedur yg panjang..kena amik borang kat opis, jumpa k.p, g lak jumpa kaunselor, pastu jumpa k.p balik, g jumpa kaunselor balik, baru dpat submit kat opis..2 hari gak ah..mase aq skola dulu..hanya satu surat je..dan aq bole pulang di hujung minggu..huhu..inila akibat slalu klentong warden..lalala



tapi aq rase hari tu adela antara hari yg best dlm life aq sejak ayah aq strok n didiagnose menghidap liver cirrhosis..sobsob..yu, ko telah banyak menceriakan hidup aq..tak lupa juga kepada sayangku cuda n avec..hehe



kalau da ada yuyu, thats meant yg hari itu adalah hari bersuka ria sedunia..kesian yuyu..punya jauh dia merantau, jusco bukit tinggi pun dia tak penah sampai..haha..plan nak jumpa lea n begum..ajak lepak..tapi tu la..aq rasa kita org ni smua ada tendency untk tidak stick to the plan..1 minute, nothing is gonna be d same..haha..slps sesi diskusi d tepi jalan, kami pun memutuskan untuk balik, n kuar g uptown pada malamnye..tapi apa la nasib aq, yuyu ni memang kekadang suka buat keputusan melulu..aq da naik kesas n da sampai seksyen 24 baru dia cakap nak g gak alamanda..dengan berbekalkan semangat perjuangan 2 org 'backdropist' ni..hennnntam je jalan mana yg agak2 bole sampai kat putrajaya tu..ko memang hantu yu..ko kata ko tau jalan kat putrajaya..

tapi aq rasa smua tu patut salahkan aq..KENAPA AQ PERCAYA CAKAP YUYU?!!!..wuwuwu..bersyukur kepada tuhan kerana aq tak langgar mana2 kereta mahupun divider dek mengikut arah co-pilot aq tu..haha..jumpa chi2 n bergelak ketawa sesama semula..bila dipikirkan, last aq jumpa chi2 adalah mase antar ateq kat klia dulu..thanx to yuyu for giving me d idea..apa yg bagus jumpa kawan2 lama?means dat aq bole back to my nature..aq akui aq memang bole bercakap tanpa henti berejam2..huhu..tapi ap yg paling penting adalah jam berapa kita org decide nak balik?1st kul 11.30 tapi slagi da namanye pompuan, slagi mulut tak di plaster, memang susah nak berenti..n at last mau dekat pukul 12 jugak..haha..sorry tablikh..aq tak tau betul tak nama dia..sorry chi..blame yuyu..

aq memang nak gila..aq tdo kul 3 n aq kena bangun g banting kul 7..aaargghh..semua ni kerana daun nenas..huhu..nak amik daun nenas rupanya mencabar bangat sih..pengajaran buat rakyat malaysia..jangan sama sekali masuk ladang org..caro owner d opis dia..yu,ingatkah dikau 3 ekor anjing durjana yg laju nak mati kejar ko n marina??wuwu..nak nangis pun ada..tapi ego kena jaga babe..hehe..thanx yu, sbb sudi ikut aq buat2 benda2 yang menggadai nyawa tu..aq tak tau apa la nasib kita kot penjaga ladang tu tak de..hehe